i wonder what they're thinking

obviously at some point during our date the mister and i discuss his initial response to the project.


date 1: thought it seemed fun, pure and simple
date 2: didn't care for it. he was worried i'd be exploiting people
date 3: along the lines of date one
date 4: also ok with it. but he'd already known me and knew this was the kind of thing you might expect
date 5a: seemed ok with it but at the last minute wasn't. this is no big deal except that he and his friends carried on for the night with text/email insults instead of just enjoying a really good show
date 5b: an awesome sport with ideas and enthusiasm
date 6: another gung-ho guy who also writes and knows where i'm coming from
date 7: said he'd be fine with whatever was said and was excited about the idea
date 8: also said i could say whatever, even said he'd go along with it (i love the enthusiasm!)

but that's just what i'm told while sitting across the table from a person. i'd really like to hear what they thought (i cringe. really, self, really you want to know?)

but then, what do i want to know? what does that do for me? what does that do for the project? i've already put myself out there enough to secure a few hours of their time. at that point am i hoping for something as simple as a pat on the back and a "you made a decent enough date," or what? i'm sure at least one of them has negative things to say. and i shouldn't be the one to ask that they make them known. that could make the rest of the week pretty hard.


speaking of the rest of the week:



it's now december 27. i have to go on four more dates in the next few days.
TROUBLE.


december 28: #9 to a storyslam at l'etage
december 29: #10 to the talent show in brooklyn
december 30: #11 there was mention of bluegrass in west philly?
december 31: #12 new years eve?!?!?


all this and i'm still trying to prep for my GREs so i can eventually be an art therapist for crying out loud!!